When i was 23 i loved attending my senior colleague's or manager's weddings.
At that age, it's fun seeing OLDER people tie the knot. Now i'm almost 28 it sucks seeing everyone get hitched.
"When is you turn?", people annoyingly ask me. My heart fills with bitter volcanic fury while i fake a smile and force myself to be polite to these rude people who have no idea what pain they have inflicted upon me...
If i had a dick i'd have more say but as a chick my hands are tied until the other half pops the question. Statistics show that if a woman proposes or forces the man to propose, the marriage is 50% more likely to fail. Like Britney Spears.
Another thing that did hurt was that my childhood best friend did not ask me to be her bridesmaid.
Given we are not as close as we once were.
Given i have already been bridesmaid once and will be bridesmaid again in March.
Given i did THINK that i didnt want to be her bridesmaid.
But still, when she named her bridesmaids on Facebook and i wasnt one of them, it does somehow hit me somewhere.
Not to tears. No tears shed. I didnt really want to do the whole bridesmaid thing a third time in the span of 1 year. But still, damned if u do, damned if you dont.
Either way I just cant win.