Sometimes

Sometimes the only one u can turn to is your DIARY.

Can't blog about this.

So Dear Diary, i know it's been so long since i last wrote....................

Time to Let Go

Ever had a pet u loved so dearly leave this world untimely?

Happy

Mine ran away and came back with some disease and had to be put to sleep. 9 years ago. A year after Happy's death, i laid white flowers where he used to eat.

Father knew of this and said "My Sue Sue is so sentimental". Didn't know what it mean then.

That was the first time i heard that word. And yes, it describes me.


My pre-teen to early-teen years, i loved the Sweet Valley series. Then i stopped reading them... Found out they went out of print last year. Quickly, i MUST get all books i don't own. Found a girl off the internet who sold them to me for RM2 per copy.

Bought a stack.

Happy with my prize, i picked up one of them and began to read. Oh my God, it's toooo... young for me? It's been 6 months and i haven't read even one from that stack.

Guess i grew out of it.


We were told that we could take our assignments back for marketing last semester. I gladly took mine. Ce asked me what for?? I said i like to keep my assignments. Then she said "Your house must be full of junk".

Hahahaha, she's soooo right! Found receipts of school fees from 2000!! There were so many little time capsules in my room.

Time to trash some stuff.

2005 was... a year filled with many new experiences. So many. From entering university and staying at the hostel, to having my first office job, to crashing my car...

That's just naming a few. It has been one hell of a year. Being 19. So much has happened. Being vague here cuz this is my Blog and all of 2005 are in the archives...

Made many new friends, kept in touch with some of the old and fell out with a few. Regarding the few... I longed for things to be like they were. But maybe... it's time to let go.

As hard as it is. I have to let go.

Creating Waves

Never written about it before but there are days when i go to sleep and wake up the next day with relatively curly hair. I look into the mirror and like it. Then i deliberately skip combing my hair. In hopes of having the curls all day.

Pathetic huh? Haha. Then there are days when i look into the mirror and say i'm so SICK of my hair. It's so flat. Makes my face look ugly and long and round...

So i decided to curl my hair. Against my mommy's word.

Sat there shit long. Played with my cam. Butt hurt.

Gonna change one of my blogging policies. Used to never put up clear pictures of me unless there are so many girls in the picture that u won't know who i am if u don't know me. Unless, u look at all the pix i posted and figured out who i am.

Because i don't see how i can blog about curling my hair without actually putting up a pic...

WS's done and i still look like THAT.

Hair turned out well. Happy with how it looks.

But price sucked astronomically. RM250. Was told me RM120 at max... Stupid, all cuz it's a Saturday. No hairdressing students there. So proffesional did my hair. Yeah, she said that it would have cost RM380. But still.... RM250 kills. And it's only going to last 2-3 months.

Depending how u take care. And i'm so freaking lazy to care of it. And i have to fork out another RM30 or so to buy gel... it's a necessity... I'm too used to having free and easy to manage almost virgin hair... maybe that's why it was ugly before?

Wasn't exactly ugly before, it was nice in fact. If u look at it from behind. But it doesn't make my stupid face look nice la. And yes, i was always proud of the fact that people mistaken my natural hair texture for straighten hair texture.......

Anyway, AFTER i've paid only did the saloon lady tell me she put treatment on my hair. Mannnnn... i only wanted to curl... i dun wanna pay for the treatment... i wasn't told... no wonder it took so long. And so expensive, had to borrow! Found it hard to continue smiling...

Yeah, it's my fault! Why didn't i ask how much it would have cost beforehand??? Must not be shy to ask!!! What happen to new year resolution #1??? =(

Mummy scolded me... =(

Is this worth it?

Anger
Argued with E over smses while doing my hair. Then argued with my mom when i got home.

Then argued with my brother. Stupid. That white Kancil in the house was my car for two years and then i came home 2day and referred it as 'my car' and i got a very fierce reply 'it's not YOUR car'.

What the hell? Even if it's not mine alone exclusively anymore, can't u see it's already a habit to call it that? I'm not ready to accept that my car is not my car anymore. Damn it, just thinking of it makes me cry. Shit.

Next topic...


W's b'day / small school reunion
Was fun. Was never close to all of them... but got along more than okay. =) Fun bullying W... Great catching up with C.


Food
Had Chinese food there. Yum. Damn, when i'm done eating every grain of my rice, i looked to the right. Shit, WS did not finish her bowl of rice. Look left, C did not finish hers either. Straight ahead, S didn't too. Shit, is it some sort of RULE to waste food? Aiyoh. Sickening la, i felt so sad.

Girls!!! Eeee, sometimes i hate them man!!!! I wasn't even full ok? My stomach only filled up after i enjoyed a 2 cups of tea, okay?

Sighhhhhh.


P.s.
Ohhhhh... and received compliments from my friends on my hair!!!!! =) Thanks guys. They also complimented me on another thing... =P Will write about that another day.

P.s.s.
WS loves my hair too. So much she seems to be scarily sounding lesbian!! Hahahaha.


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Super Jackpot Bonus

Stupid, remember this??

Something due everyday this week for me

Just got better.

Presentation got brought forward.

And a million other things had to happen today. Bad day. Plus everything else ALSO has to fall this week. Like trying on our cheerleading uniform. And renewing my driving lisence.

Don't i have enough things to do???

Mafan. Wanna complain but no time.


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Torture, Pure Torture

Did not log onto msn... avoiding my group mates for the consumer behaviour (CB) assignment. I haven't done my part! This is horrible.

And a while ago, my friend was smsing me. She's out, having fun. Said she was talking to this hot guy. Don't remember her exact words and can't refer to the sms cuz i deleted it on the spot. Jealous la, she's out n stuff while here i am, supposed to be doing HOMEWORK.

"He's sweet", she said in her next sms.

Aiyoh... jealoussss... i want my boyfriend!!!!! =(

Pure torture.

E also... torturing me! Called me to check on my progress with my work. Shit la. He recited everything i said to him, man! He's got every detail right:
- the fact that i wanted to get into honours,
- the fact that i didn't do well in fat man's class,
- he remembered that i have a presentation for company reporting and a
- group thing for CB...

Wa.. he actually listens to me when i complain about school work! Hahaha, good job, good job.

But... it was annoying lar listening to him... sounded so mocking... so irritating... doing his job... making sure i do well... it's for my own stupid good and i know it.

My parents can make me stay home but they cannot make me study, they won't. I stayed home all of today cuz my mom was pissed at me yesterday -- i went out too much, haven't been studying in the past few days and i kinda did something...

But today, i ended up reading the magazines my mom bought and chit-chatting with her... and also tagged along with mum to watch a bit of the shooting for this new local movie entilted Tiffin...

And here i am. The mere thought of the amount of uncompleted work i have makes me shudder... i couldn't swallow my coffee...

There's a lump forming in my throat. Cuz of anxiety. Gotta go do my work now. After i edit this and bold some words...


P.s. E will kill me for blogging. And i really wonder what'll happen to me if my group members knew i was blogging instead of completing my task... Shit, the thought kills. I do not wanna be known as the unreliable...

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